Let's just say besides Matt, who is working constantly and May, whom I can barely contact now since she moved far far away, I don't really have that much friends I can just talk to within my circle. Everyone is so busy nowadays. People that I use to know start to fade and there really isn't anyone left. I had a good friend Jules who use to text me everyday and then they stopped because her phone went haywire and started to stop working and now that she has school and work I never hear from her anymore. This feeling of being alone is overwhelming. Pathetic isn't it. A name I haven't seen in a while, Ann, is too busy with her school work to bother with someone like me. She's got a full life. I really didn't use to call her Ann but I had to shorten it since the whole starting over thing. If you're reading this Ann, I know you're busy so I understand and you're right, you do make a bad text buddy. Joke lang. lol
Whenever I come back here to write, my long ramblings like this one is usually something that's been bugging me, or a problem, or maybe some type of sadness. I guess being pathetic, lonesome, sad, and depressed force some second being to come out and to allow myself to release some of this emotion I just write, write, write...
People tell me "You should take up a hobby", "Do something you find fun."... but those things only go so far and for me a simple conversation with a good friend is a lot more meaningful. Make someone laugh brings a great smile to my face... it's, as they say, 'whatevers'.
I guess it's just me, myself, and I for the night and this nice warm cup of coffee. It's weird that coffee makes me sleepy than awake...
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